This could be a shock to many, however sometimes those are good, right?
After much hmm and hww I decided to quit working at the store. I’ve heard all sorts of questions such as “are you sure you want to quit during these economic times” and the like. My answer is yes, I am sure. I have been working at the store for 4 and a half years now, I still haven’t figured out what I’d like to do when I grow up but I realized that it’s ok and a lot of people haven’t figured it out. After a set of really horrible days at work, one of which included my completely unprofessional blow up at a fellow co-worker regarding a mistake made while a customer happened to be in the store, I decided and realized that it was time I moved on. I don’t want to be the kind of person who spends more time lecturing those under me, nor do I want to mirco-manage anyone. It wasn’t until that day did I realize that over the last few months I have increasingly become someone I don’t want to be; nit-picking others, being impatient with co-workers, in some cases customers as well, and in general just not caring. I don’t think of myself as being that way, yes I can be very detail oriented and I do care. Typically if someone does something that is different that how I would do it that’s fine, however it was getting to the point where they needed to do it my way as well. I’m wrong, my way works for me and maybe not for someone else, they need to find their own way. I know this, so to suddenly expect otherwise is just plain stupid on my half.
So, what am I going to now you wonder? Well, I’m not really sure yet. Maybe of my friends have asked this and really I don’t have an answer. I hope to not be out of work for long but reality is I can’t say for how long. I am still working a few hours a week for the Juan de Fuca Festival, so that’s a bit and gives good references for me. With my work hiatus I plan on visiting Victoria, cleaning the house and probably cleaning up the yard a bit. All three things have sadly very much taken a back burner life these days. Yes I am, for lack of better words, scared shitless about quitting. But I don’t know how it’s going to turn out until I do it and who knows, maybe for me this is the best time to leave. Time will tell.